Why I Don’t Write Poetry Anymore

White LilyLong before I did any other writing (as an adult) I used to write poetry. This was back in the 80s and well before I started my writing course. I went through a very difficult period in my life which lasted a few years and I found that writing poetry was cathartic for me. However, when I came through that dark period I found that I could no longer write poetry with such ease. It seems that my talent for poetry writing only applies to sombre and depressing topics for some strange reason. I have attempted to write happy poetry but haven’t often been successful with only one or two exceptions. So, as my life and my state of mind improved, I gradually stopped writing poetry.

Then, 10 years ago I lost my mother and it was a very traumatic experience. I woke up one morning shortly after her death with the first and last verses of a poem fully formed in my mind. Within half an hour I had added the remaining verses. Together they capture exactly how I felt at that time. After showing the poem to a few relatives the consensus was that it should be read out at the funeral. So it was arranged and many people commented on how moving they found it. That’s the last poem I wrote, and I hope that I won’t feel the urge to write any more for a long time. Here it is:

Each day when I wake I’m filled with pain

To think that we’ll never see you again

You were loving and caring as a mother should be

You meant the world to my brothers and me

 

For months you suffered but soldiered on

I feel so guilty now that you’re gone

If only we’d known how ill you were

Then maybe you would still be here

 

The last two weeks were relatively good

They kept you from pain as much as they could

We had a party around your bed

It was lovely to see us together you said

 

We’ll always remember the happier days

You made us laugh in so many ways

With your quirky sayings and sense of fun

You could turn anything into a pun

 

Wherever we are you’ll always be there

It’s hard to express just how much we care

Your memory will never go away

For you made us all what we are today

White Lily and Cross

 Do you write any poetry that you would like to share? What inspires you with your poetry writing or with writing in general? Please feel free to let me have your feedback below.

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7 thoughts on “Why I Don’t Write Poetry Anymore

  1. Oh my goodness, that is simply beautiful. Thank you for sharing that. I didn’t realise you lost your Mum. I’m so sorry. 😦 I lost mine in 1999 and my Dad in 2000. Both died from awful terminal illnesses. Even though I was in my 30s I felt orphaned and still do. I used to write poetry, not avidly, but just when I wanted to make someone laugh. I wrote a poem about my Dad for Fathers Day once – I have it scanned somewhere. I will share it with you privately if I can find it. You’ll get a real sense of who he was. Lovely blog, Diane! X

  2. Thanks Alice, I really appreciate your feedback. I was in two minds whether to put it on the blog as it’s a bit personal but a lot of people had already heard it at the funeral so I thought, why not? It’s awful losing someone that close isn’t it – it’s a pain like no other. I’d love to see your poem about your Dad. Poems can be so expressive, can’t they? X

  3. Thank you Guy. It was 10 years ago so it does get easier. I just wanted to show a different writing style via my blog as the theme is all things writing. Look out for my humorous post in a few weeks. 🙂

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